The masquerade

Sometimes you will just forget about how stress you are,
until the stress overwhelmed
and eventually cover yourself.


The hidden feeling,
they don't even show a sign, a hint, or symtoms
and you don't know what the secret world is undergoing.


The more inner thoughts you are holding it,
the more you wanna let it go.

Sometimes it just happen to be that,
you feel lost but you're not.


What life had taught you about,
is the realistic that will kill anyone anytime.


You're not fragile to that standard yet,
and the mind ask for a break.


Friend,
all I'm asking here is get out of the mask,
and get a life.

A lame yet enthusiastic post

I don't really feel like in mood today.
It's like the friends thinging and the bullshit thinging bugging me.

I think i'm really a very moody person.
I prefer to keep quiet rather than starting a fight to spurt out all the anger.
Deep down I still holding the barrier of no personal attack that might caused inside hurt forever,
joking is fine because you will only joke to people who can take the joke,
for those who can't,
omg, congratulation for recruiting another member into your enemy list.


My mind do a lot of talking to myself all the time,
and recently there's actually a little voice deep down telling me list of persons who i can die for them.
not that i want to die now lah okay,
is person that worth i risk my life to save or bravely take the bullet that actually should shot him/her.
very touching right?
yes i know. T.T


I think sometimes i get offended too easily,
feel like people around me are trying to make me tulan.
what is wrong with the world?
tell me!!!!!!!
what the **** do they want from me?

okay. not trying to be emo.
just wanna try out the difference between big font and small font.

lame.


Recently there's also a starting of a Nerd Trend.
(ok lah started by me coz i keep thinking about being a nerd)
The only reason i want to be nerd is
Nerd don't have to talk a lot because they rarely have emotions and less people can actually pissed them off.
oh well, i only want to take the no emotion and no pissed off part.
can I?
Judy said i'm "too cool to be a nerd"
that's a compliment i would say. LOL.
hehehehe.

So,
my target had now changed to be a COOL NERD.

definition of being a COOL NERD
- less emotions
- more patience
- can act cool and lame
- can remain to talk a lot XP
- be more sensitive to the surrounding but at the same time keep it to ownself
- recognize the true friend and best friend (nerd can also have friends k？)
- less crap (which is the highest level of being a cool nerd)


end of post.
Cool Nerds have to back to study/sleep now.